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"How do I unwrite the past? How do I undo the mistakes? How do I unlove you?" these lines from the movie Starting Over Again are really difficult to answer in real life. But I guess, in one way or another, many of us can actually relate to it. Actually, I have questions that I’m waiting to be answered as well.
So I watched the movie yesterday with my mom, okay I know it has been a month since its showing but it’s better to be late than never, the first parts were funny to the point that I forgot that this is a romantic movie. However, towards the ending, I realized that the reviews were right. This is one realistic movie.
How do I unwrite the past? — we can’t because PSP (Past is Past) okay?
How do I undo the mistakes? — we can’t, there’s no ‘undo’ button in life but at least we can learn from our mistakes…
How do I unlove you? — we can’t, we can just love people in different ways.
Aside from these questions, there are other lines that surely hit the viewers, including me T_T:
- "More than three years and I thought we were good. Hindi ko lang alam kung bakit, kung pano, kung pano nag-simula. Ano ang nangyari sa ating dalawa?"
- "Bakit nga ba? Kasi ang tanga tanga mo. Apat na taon, wala ka man lang ginawa. Hindi mo man lang tinawagan. Hindi mo man lang sinulatan. Ma-pride ka kasi. Ang yabang mo!"
- "I deserve an explanation. I need an acceptable reason."
- "Anong karapatan mong hingin ang isang bagay na pinagdamot mong ibigay? I deserved an explanation. I deserved an acceptable reason."
- "Kung talagang mahal mo ako, dapat sinundan mo ako."
"Kung talagang mahal mo ako, dapat hindi mo ako iniwan."
and these are what I also want to say/ask/hear:
- "And I regret that everyday."
- "There are three words I’ve been wanting to say to you for five years. I am sorry. I’m sorry dahil hindi ko kinaya na sabihin sa’yo ang totoo. Im sorry dahil iniwan kita. I’m sorry na nasaktan kita. I’m sorry kasi natakot ako. Im sorry for giving up on us.”
- "Sorry din kasi hindi ko nakita ang mga takot mo. Tsaka mga pangangailangan mo."
- "Do we still have a second chance? Naniniwala ka rin ba na our love story deserves a better ending?"
- "I will do everything it takes to bring you back. I will never lose hope that we will have our second chance."
on the contrary, I don’t want to hear the following:
- "I was willing to wait… Kaya lang napagod ako. Napagod ang puso ko na maghintay, magtanong, magalit."
"I loved him first."
"And you let go of your chance."
- "Dahil nung iniwan mo si Marco, binigyan mo siya ng karapatan na mag-mahal ng iba."
- "Ang bagal mo kasi. Naunahan ka na. May iba na. May iba na."
I hope someone will have the courage to tell these things straight to my face:
"Yang hope na yan. Lason yan. Parang drugs na nakaka-adik."
"Kung wala kasi nun, ang sakit. Sobrang sakit."
"Adik ka na naman sa pag-asa eh. Try mo na kaya lumaklak ng realidad?"
the reason is:
"Kailangan na kitang idelete sa buhay ko."
Lastly, I agree that "Kung may gusto kang sabihin, dapat sabihin mo na." We don’t need a site like www.letterlater.com to write how we really feel then send it to the person sometime in the future. I mean, the only constant thing in the world is change, people change and feelings change so most probably the content of that letter will be outdated. As for me, unfortunately, I just chose not to say anything back then. I’m so sorry, hindi ako manhid, ayoko lang mag-assume. I think what I need now are the answers to my questions, then after that, I can finally start over again.
Flappy Bird is like a metaphor for life. Sometimes you fail many times before succeed. Some people will go further than others, but no matter how far you get, when you improve you always feel proud. Sometimes after success you fail again and have to start all over again. But the important thing is that you get up and just keep trying. Because when you want something bad enough, you’re not going to let anyone or anything get in your way.